Promised Update!

So, I promised I would update you all on the events of late.  Drumroll, please.  I contacted Millie again.  I couldn't take the heartache any longer.  She was in my thoughts several times each day and my dreams a few times a week, so I decided to send her a text.

Since I had nothing to lose, I laid everything on the line: my feelings, thoughts, dreams, regret, heartache.  Either she would tell me never to contact her again, we would talk and cut it off, talk and be friends, or talk and it would go somewhere.

She and I have matured rather much since our break-up 9 months ago.  We talked about everything that happened during the time apart, even the topics that were painful.  Though I hated to do so, I told her about absolutely everything that happened while we were apart.

It turned out she felt the same as I!  What a shocker!  I was still madly in love with her, and she was still madly in love with me.  We decided we wished to start our relationship again and try our hardest this time.  I sincerely want to be with her no matter what happened/happens.  On June 25th, 6 months after our former anniversary, Millie asked me to be her girlfriend, and I, of course, said yes!

It's incredible how easy it was to fall back into the comfortable familiar state we were in before.  I feel right at home with her, even more than I do at my actual home.  Unfortunately, we are currently long distance as we live on opposing sides of the country.  I'm planning to visit her in September.  This trip will be a major deciding factor in our relationship.  While I'm there, I will explore housing options and job opportunities and decide if I can imagine myself living there long-term.  I currently believe I will be confident with the move.  If I can, I will move as soon as I have my goal amount in savings and have a job and housing secured.  After Millie finishes her spring term of courses, she will move in with me.  It will be much easier financially at that time because we will split expenses.

Nothing about this relationship will be easy, but it is totally worth all the troubles.  I love her with all my being and will do whatever it takes.  Knowing what it is like without her in my life fuels my dedication towards our relationship even further.

Millie-  I'm so incredibly thankful to have you in my life once again and am very proud to be your girlfriend.  Though times will be tough (as they already have), I will always love you, and you have my full support.  We will fight the opposition and succeed in the end.  I have hope in us!  The good times we have together make the struggle and hard times worth it.

Forever and always,
Maude