Education & Following My Dreams

When growing up, my parents told me, as most parents do, "You can be whatever you want!" and encouraged me to dream big.  I'm 19 years old now, and their viewpoint has changed tremendously.  Now, they're highly critical of what I study and the career I wish to engage in my future years.

I began my university studies with computer science.  With a B. S. in Computer Science, I wanted to go into software design or software engineering.  Within the first semester, my minor went from IT to women's studies.  The second semester rolled around, and I was lost from my previous computer programming course.  I decided to retake it alongside the next course: discrete mathematics.  The latter class was a confusing course of p's and q's.  I hated it!  What was I studying?  Was this what I really wanted to do for the next 30 to 50 years?  I think not.

The German course I was taking in the spring was fascinating, and I throughly enjoyed studying the language and culture.  I then changed my course of study to German in hopes of becoming...I don't know.  Maybe an English professor in Germany, Austria, or Switzerland?  Ehh, it was a possibility.

Halfway through the semester, I went on medical leave and moved back in with my parents at home.  Where am I now?  I'm not sure.  I'm questioning what future career I wish to have along with my course of study that would best suit the career and vice versa.  Do I return to the university in the fall?  Maybe enroll in online classes because of my questionable health?  Forget college altogether and study on my own?  Those are the questions I'm currently facing.

What I know:

• I'd love to be a stay-at-home mom
• I want to have biological children and adopt/foster
• I want to travel the country and globe

What I don't know:

• How will I fund my dreams?
• What is my next step?
• How can I make those dreams a reality?

In today's society, education is important, but the value of a college diploma is declining as recent graduates are seeking the same jobs as the general public because of either a lack of jobs, poor economy, etc.  Plus, graduates and college students have piles of debt from the university.  Is it even worth it?

Recently, I've delved into researching college alternatives or, as some call it, ways to "hack" my education.  I've found many resources for studying a variety of topics for free or a low cost.  These courses wouldn't result in a degree, but what is the point of a degree if I can prove and apply my knowledge?  I don't think I'm heading towards a typical career, so a typical degree may not be necessary.  I think I may save up, purchase a camper/RV, and travel around the nation working odd jobs and writing until I settle down and start a family.  I believe that route would provide the most adventure, satisfaction, happiness, and a plethora of stories to share thereafter.

Since devising that plan, I feel more secure about my future and happiness.  I don't know if my family will support my dreams or not, but, when it comes down to it, that doesn't matter but so much.  I've been told I'll regret more the choices I did not take more than the ones I do.  Also, the more I believe in my choices and dreams, the less I need others to believe in them.  Both statements of advice are fueling me.  How will it all play out?  Stay tuned!

Cheers to the many adventures ahead!

Maude